May 22, 2012
Wow. It’s been a year since I’ve been on this thing and let me tell you, so much has changed.
A year ago today was the one of the best days of my life. I started dating Travis Cassada. I have had a few boyfriends in the past, but Travis is something different. He knows exactly what I’m going to say and exactly how I’m going to say it. Travis knows what to do when I’m upset or how to make me laugh in an instant. And now, a year a later, we are better than ever.
In this year, I have grown into a person that I can actually say that I am proud of. I have gotten rid of the negatives in my life and choose to focus on the positives. I continue my friendship with a few old friends, but not many. I have seen the true colors of certain people and decided that I didn’t want to be a part of it anymore.
Everything we do is a choice. Oatmeal or cereal. Highway or side streets. Kiss her or keep her. We make choices and we live with the consequences. If someone gets hurt along the way, we ask for forgiveness. It’s the best anyone can do.
I’m an official junior in college. It’s weird as all get out to know that I’m growing up and just a few months closer to being 20. And then comes the best birthday of being 21. I can’t believe it. I’ve gone through so much and changed, some for the bad but mostly for the better. I’ve transferred schools, learned how to produce a TV show, changed my major, and made new friends, all in one semester. I can’t even describe the countless memories I have from before this semester. I’ve gained some friends that I know I won’t lose, and I’ve lost some friends I know I won’t miss but its okay.
The only advice I have for today is for one person. They will never see this or hear this advice from me, but maybe they’ll finally realize it.
I won’t wait forever.
doesn’t wanna let you know that there might be something real between us too, who knew? Now we don’t wanna fall but we’re tripping in our hearts and it’s reckless and clumsy, because I know you can’t love me.
I am incredibly awkward and negative. I get attached easily, and I hold on for too long. I don’t like opening up to people. Most 5 year old children can express their feeling better than me. I hide behind my fake smiles. I’m terrified of being hurt. I tend to act older than I am. I’m probably one of the most difficult people you will ever meet. But I can be sweet. I’m a great listener. I’ll guard your secrets with my life. I will never judge you based on your mistakes, and I’ll love you as much as I can. I can be, if you let me, one of the best things in your life.
Story of my life..this describes me to a T. And it sucks.
Beauty gets the attention, Personality gets the heart. -Alfred Muteti
Don’t waste your time with fear.. Fear won’t keep you safe from being hurt. -Tiffanie Debartolo
Life is good. Boys are dumb, but so are girls. Especially myself in some situations.
And I didn’t mean to meet you then when we were just kids.
And I didn’t mean to give you chills the way that I kiss.
And I didn’t mean to fall in love, but I did.
And you didn’t mean to love me back but I know you did…— A Lonely September — Plain White T’s (via quote-book)
Have you ever tried sleeping with a broken heart?
Well, you could try sleeping in my bed — Try sleeping with a broken heart, Alicia Keys (via kari-shma)
going through old messages on myspace
My name is Chelsea Caldwell Brackins. I was born sixteen years ago on June 11th. I’ve been dancing for thirteen of those years, and it has the best time of my life. I love every minute of it. The sore feet and blisters are worth it when I hit the stage. I am basically always listening to music, of all different varieties and styles. I must say that Dashboard Confessional is my favorite, though. Tough call. I read like a maniac. I read Harry Potter; The Deathly Hallows, in about a day. I fully intend on marrying Harry Potter and sending our kids to Hogwarts, afterall, their father AND mother are legendsJ Have I mentioned how much I love to dance? I bust out in random dance moves whenever I hear a tone or a beat. It’s not a very good habit to have when I’m driving. I love to drive, too. I drive a redish-orange Volvo, and it’s my baby. I have a lime green dinosaur swinging on the rearview mirror. Dinosaurs are my favorite, and always will be. I love going to Dino Land in Build-A-Bear. My favorite color is fuchsia. It’s so bright and bold, which is what I try to be. I know how to rock a pair of sweat pants like nobody’s business. Being comfortable is key, and even if it means looking like I just woke up, it’s worth it. I spend ample amounts of time with my friends. I have been blessed with awesome friends. We don’t have the typical relationship that we say “hey!” in halls and call us best friends. We’re the type of friends that text ALL DAY, scream and laugh every minute we’re together, and go everywhere together. I’m an older sister, to Cayci. She can get under my skin sometimes, but what little sister doesn’t? I love her a lot, she just reminds me a lot of myself and that bugs me. My mom is awesome and she loves Cheesecake Factory as much as I do. Which is A LOT. I could live off of Chocolate Tuxedo Mousse Cake. Delicious. I change my career plan every minute, but right now I’m bouncing a few ideas back and forth, but I can‘t rightly decide. I’m leaning towards being a dentist, but cooking is a big hobby of mine, so I might take that into consideration. I don’t know, I just want to do what makes me happy, and right now being a dentist isn’t on my list of things to do. I’ve got the sunshine, bright eyed, California, cotton candy taste.
Today is a good day. Downtown and midnight bowling. Also, I’ve been inspired to read a series very dear to me, again. It will only be like the 15th time but I’m okay with it.